Victor of Circumstance: Keeping it Raw, Keeping it Real
Keeping it raw, keeping it real While driving my son to school one morning this came out of no where, hitting me like a ton of bricks – I truly miss having someone intimate in my life to share special moments with, someone who is invested in my life and genuinely cares for me. There it is, raw and unedited.
My tears flowed while my heart began to beat erratically as I deeply felt the pain, discomfort, and emptiness of being unattached.
But soon after my rationing mind interrupted, wanting to stop what was unfolding , wanting to seek higher ground. It reminded me how strong, independent, blessed and loved I am. It was like my own protection devise or safety harness, wanting to rescue me in my time of need and despair.
Just a few short seconds later I intentionally returned to that raw emotion allowing myself to feel through the loneliness when a song started to play on the radio… “Just breath, just be.” It was then that I told myself that it’s okay. It’s okay to have desires, needs, wants, heartache and pain. It’s also okay to be real with myself and share this vulnerable side with others. Our rationing mind has a place and a purpose and so does our struggling, messy heart. Allowing the two to co-exist and intertwine with one another is harmoniously beautiful.
I share this with you in hopes that my raw emotion and honesty will resonate with you either now or at some point in time, allowing you too grant yourself permission to, “Just breathe, just be.”
Love and Blessings,
P.S. My sixth grade son is graduating from playing the clarinet in band class to playing the saxophone beginning next week. This was his goal when the school year began and I am SO very proud of him. Thanks for listening.